Sorry...

"Today" - Yes I am sorry of the post below if your some how offended by it... or something. Well today was relaitive normal... except that I went out driving with my mom and I drove around by the harbor. After we were done I drove home :) and I kept my cool :) it was good :). I also have to get out relative early tomorrow morning for my driving test. Wish me luck every one. :) and Leave some love in the fourm or in my GB.

:: Angel of Death 2/25/2004 11:28:00 PM [+] ::
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Re-cap

"Saturday" - I stayed home most of the day. Then went out to get Lauren and brought her to my aunts so my dad could bs with her (my aunt). After that we went to the coach house to eat. then went home watched invader zim and went to bed.

"Sunday" - Lauren and I watched Carrie. Then ate dinner and finished watching Carrie. After we droped Lauren off my parents took me to GSP so we could practice driving. After my parents made me nervious enoughm AND YES IT WAS AN EMPTY PARKING LOT!!!!!, we left and went home.

"Monday" - I felt like shit on monday ... Lots of thoughts going in my head ... I had to escape from reality... so ... I started my drinking binge.... but that was after my aunt helen took me out driving, It was better with her heh... more calming and less nervousness, But yeah. I got home around 8:30 ish and kenny called so I went to hang out with him. When I cought up with them sam had a joint so I took part in toking up along with drinking... so I was quite fucked up monday night.

"Tuesday" - Today started okay, But turned to shit. First it started to snow so I couldnt go out driving today. Second I think I am going to be draged in to a "war" between two of my friends and I will be there for the on, I don't want to take a side because they are my friends... but I dont know ... I really do feel I should take the side of friend A, But untill I get the whole story from both sides...it will eat away at me and drive me insane. "

"Now" - I am sittng here and the only thought that goes through my head is I cant sleep with the only thing I have left to remind me of my grandmother because it is/was a symbol of my innocence and I have long but lost that. ... ... I have lost my innocence ... I've lost my innocence ... having sex or sexual intercorse with out love behind it makes me feel dirty... very dirty... I feel like I might as well charge people or something... well that is how I feel... I feel like a pross... Just here for people to fuck when need be... and PS I am not talking about the friends who are "waring" at the moment.



I am falling apart at the sems and nothing makes sense to me. I need the help of some one. I need the help of every one. Some one please... please help me understand what is going on here... what is going on in this world... what need I do to make sense of this shit called life? And why do I smoke so goddamn much? Well other then to take my mind off of what is really happening around me. And to take my mind off of what I should see but don't want to see. Then again maybe that is my problem, I don't want to see what is right in my face... I don't want to accept the truth of the matter. Which then makes every thing I believe and every thing I think and feel all just one big lie. A lie that I may never find the truth to.



"Speical Reminder" : Thursday is my driving test. Wish me luck.



Then some one will say what is lost can never be saved

:: Angel of Death 2/25/2004 04:11:00 AM [+] ::
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You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.


What feeling do you represent?
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You are Form 4, Gargoyle: The Fallen.

"And The Gargoyle mended his wings from the
blood of the fallen so he could rise up from
imprisonment. With great speed and
resourcefulness, Gargoyle made the world his
for the taking."

Some examples of the Gargoyle Form are Daedalus
(Greek) and Mary Magdalene (Christian).
The Gargoyle is associated with the concept of
success, the number 4, and the element of wood.
His sign is the new moon.

As a member of Form 4, you are a creative and
resourceful individual. You are always
thinking of possible solutions to problems you
face and you generally choose one that is
right. Much of your success comes from your
ability to look at things a little differently
than everyone else. Gargoyles are the best
friends to have because they don't always take
things for face value.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Take the Spirit Quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.


Your ideal lover is Louis de Pointe du Lac. You
love them submissive, delicate, and empathic to
the point of self-destruction. You must be
strong person to survive his constant
melancholy. However, he has the ability to
see beauty in even the smallest detail.


Which major Anne Rice vampire is your ideal companion? (Novels)
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Fallen Angel.


What kind of Angel are you?
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Your: Suprised eyes! Your suprised and caught off
guard with almost everything! Chill it, and you
won't. Try and keep your calm, you scare peopel
with your insicurity and bullys will concider
you an open target.


What type of eyes do you have?
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WHAT TYPE OF WILD CREATURE ARE YOU? (New Pictures!)
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You're Crimson wings.You don't quite fit in with a
Fallen, White-Satin, or Demon. You're your own
unique creation. Your wings are crimson with
the blood of slain victims.


What kind of Wings are you?
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:: Angel of Death 2/17/2004 07:17:00 AM [+] ::
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honest abe or a crazy man?

Who were you in a past life? by Kat007
Name:
Birthdate:
Favorite Color:
Country:
You were most probably:	Abraham Lincoln
If not then you were:	A crazy guy on the S-Train
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:: Angel of Death 2/16/2004 01:19:00 AM [+] ::
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^.^ IM GONNA BE HOMELESS!!!! ^.^

The Evil Overlord Prophecy Thing! by eon337
What is your awe-inspiring name?
Date you will usurp power:	June 14, 2934
You will usurp power from:	A homeless person.
Your trusted second in command will be:	Someone who poses no threat.
Your base of operations will be:	Something with padded walls.
Your secret weakness will be:	Nuclear Weaponry.
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:: Angel of Death 2/16/2004 01:13:00 AM [+] ::
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Praise to Rollie

As the title says this post is all praise to Rollie, the reason, I know you all wonder, is because not just is Rollie cool but because she is Rollie. ^.^ Lets see ... to start today at lunch time Rollie gave me a tub of peanut butter. Yes a TUB OF PEANUT BUTTER!!!!!! Lol. The reason you ask. As a gift ^.^ heheh. See that is one reason to praise Rollie. No one has ever given me a tub of peanut butter, but Rollie did. The second I asked Rollie to be my valentine and she said instead she'd be my bowl of rice ^.^ . Yup She is my bowl of rice. Come one you all know that is cool and sweet and awesome hehehehehe. She wants to be my bowl of rice.

:: Angel of Death 2/12/2004 01:34:00 AM [+] ::
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Awwwwwwwwwww ^.^

^.^ heheh dave asked me to be his valentine. ^.^ heheheheh ... I have to save up some money so I can buy mom (no not my mom, but Jane's mom) a valentine present heheheh. I am going to ask her to be my valentine. I am 2 peoples valentine, I am a whore. :-p ;).

:: Angel of Death 2/10/2004 03:53:00 PM [+] ::
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FuN!!!!

Yay!!!! Yesturday I went and hung out with Rollie ^.^ heheh. We walked around a little then went to the movies, we wanted to see butterfly effect but its not playing any where close so we ended up seeing School of Rock. The movie was great! ^.^ lol. Then we went walking around and talked about stuff... yes thats right ... stuff!!!! Lol. But it was fun heh after walking around we went to her house and hung out there and talked more ^.^. I finally left at like 3am ish. lol. ^.^ deff gotta do this again ^.^.

:: Angel of Death 2/07/2004 12:44:00 PM [+] ::
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Bordom

Bored bored bored bored am I

:: Angel of Death 2/04/2004 09:59:00 PM [+] ::
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